Heaven and Fools

In heaven all the interesting people are missing.

Friedrich Nietzsche

There is a bitter truth in this quotation. I always wondered how heaven would be like. The religions describe heaven as a magical place which everybody enjoying themselves forever and ever until the end of times which is never apparently!

In this life, people enjoy small amount of relief between long agonies. Fun and interesting stuff are precious because most of the time people are bored and suffering. Think about a place filled with all the interesting stuff you could ever imagine,  would they still seems interesting if you could play with them forever and ever? The only reason which makes things interesting is that they are rare, nobody else has it or it is too hard to get. In heaven everybody can have anything they want.

Heaven is boring … I don’t understand why people are so eager to get the heaven anyways. Suppose people preferred to be bored than burned in hell. But when you think about it, being bored until the end of time is not much different from burning either. It’s another form of torture So it is hell anyway.

If there is no heaven, there is no hell either.

It is all a lie. People do all the things which they think are good to get to heaven. But when you look closely they are just a fool running toward a mirage.

Damn Fools

Soul Mate !!!

A lot of people believe in soul mates. Well I think it is safe to say everybody in some point has a friend and if they were lucky enough those friends become their close friends and eventually their mates. But soul mate is more than just that. Seems it is like a magical or perhaps spiritual bond between two people, evidently among opposite sex, which glue them together forever and ever until the end of time. If you sensed the sarcasm in my argument, you sensed correct. As much as I do want to believe that there is a soul mate out there waiting for me, I cant help thinking the whole story is some sort of fairy tale which is designed to help youngster go to sleep and dream about the brighter future in the rough times. Really that is what it is. Statistically the chance of you finding your soul mate, if there is one, is so slim that it is easier to not look for it. Beside if there is a soul mate out there let him/her find you after all it is YOUR soul mate.
The reason I talked about soul mate is that we as human tend to hope that future life is going to be easer that what it is now which is not true. Future is going to be as crappy and stupid as present. It would not going to get better folks, don’t wish for it. What you can do is first accept that life is full of lies and crap then try to get used to it. Perhaps in time if you don’t day dream all the time, your mind would find the way to ease thing for you a bit. But it is assured that life certainly not gonna get sweeter in our life time anyways, so WEAK UP, there is no soul mate, go find your mate and try to build your life with him/her.
You can call me Mr. Negative but you all know I am right.

Angles on my Sides

Through the night shall all wash away
All the horrors of the day
And the little angels on my sides
Tries to make it all worthwhile1

1Tiamat – Nihil

2Picture from DeviantArt - Evilherbivore

Egoism

There is a saying:
"Success is never so sweet as when it accompanied by the failure of a friend."1

Horrible saying but deep in its roots there is a bitter truth. We as a human like that. It gave us joy and feel superior over our best friends in their worst time. This is a quality we all share. After millennia of evolution, human learned to set some rules in his life and divide his actions in to good and evil. But somewhere along the way we forgot who we are. We forgot we are a being derived with selfishness. We are alive because of that egoism in our life. We very well try to hide it bit we all know it’s in there. Deep down we haven’t yet evolved. We just change our skins.

It is my belief that in order for human to evolve, they ought to embrace their selfishness. Only by embracing it that we can truly understand ourselves and in that process we get to next level. The higher path.

1Boston Legal, Season 3 Episode 24

From the Father to the Son

He pushed the chair a bit closer to his son. It was about time, time for the talk. He stare at the ground for a couple of second, he was trying to imagine how his son was thinking right now. Maybe he shouldn’t talk to him. Perhaps he was better of with out his advice. Then he remembered how every parent would do in this situation, they don’t talk. He didn’t want to be like other parents. In fact he didn’t want to be like anybody, and he wasn’t.
‘Son’ he began, ‘you may remember that by now everybody told you more friend you have, the better off you going to be. Whoever you chose as a friend will change your life for better of worst.’ His son was nodding along but he could see the confusion in his son’s eyes. ‘Now you rich a certain level that I can let you in a little secret about life. A hidden and ugly secret. I have lived for around forty years and in that time I have done everything for my friends. But what I realized is that even the most liberal of your friends will impose in you life. They try to influence on your life and try to change the course of your life as they please. They won’t give you your free choice when it comes to their interests. I guess what I’m trying to say is that friends are not as great as they given credits.’ He stopped for a while. He thought either he destroyed his son’s life or given him an advantage which will serve him good in his life. ‘I don’t say don’t have friends, but I’ll tell you don’t change your life because of them.’ He continued. ‘The fact is they have to change rather than you.’ Then he looked deep inside his son’s confused eyes. He could sense the conflict inside his son’s mind. Perhaps the confusion was the best he could hope for in the first initiative. He took his son’s right hand with his left hand and told him: ‘your best friend will betray, sell, break your heart and leave you. It will happen sooner or later but the trick is you shouldn’t think it is an odd event. Now that you know it will happen in that time, you may feel pain and sorrow but you won’t be paralyzed. Remember the worse thing about friend betrayal is that they most likely do it because they love you. This thing will put you in a real dilemma, should you forgive them or hate them forever. This is what you have to figure it out by yourselves.’ Then he got up turn his face from his son’s face and left the room.
Then there was a young man, a sad truth and an empty room.

What makes a man, a man?

You hear this sentence before, in song’s lyrics, in speeches and it made your mind wonders, what really makes a man, a man?Is it what he has done in his life? Is it the choices he made? Is it the life he lived? Or is it the way he ends his life?
I think it has to be just more than that. Of course we are what we do, or better to say perhaps we do what we are. If it is so, you should be a man to be a man. Simple. Just be one, choices are not simple. I am not talking about just those choice we make every now and then which change our life, I am talking about those choices we make and change others life. We have to consider that when we do things it has some effect on other people.
Still sometimes my mind wonders why we should feel good when people engage us as a significant figure, when we really know what we are. Why we feel superior when we know just some simple choice, perhaps some luck on the way with some proper support from others made what we are? How could we don’t feel ashamed when we know everybody can do what we did? You may quote “it is not true! Everybody is unique in its own way.” Although I don’t disagree, but we have to implicate the element of environment and the time we made those choices which make us unique. Think about it.
Why we want to be The MAN?

Who we are?

Big question and maybe stupid one too, isn’t it? Why is it matter, “who we are?” when we are, here right now?!
But when you think about it, it doesn’t seem that much stupid at all.
consider it: what if you know who you really are, I’m not talking about knowing what regain or ethnic background you came from; what I am asking is you knew all about you, your desirers, your powers, your potentials all the stuffs which is fundamentally about you. Don’t you think if you knew all these things, you would put your life in a right track, you won’t never hate yourself for the things you didn’t do, because you may know that you could not do it after all!
Or may be it is a blessing that we don’t know who we are.
I personally want to know who I am and as much as I know this is one of my only wishes which will never come true, still want to reserve my chances that perhaps one day in this life time I know who I was.
I can dream, can’t I?

Hunter

Life is like a hunter, laying in waiting for you, waiting to take out when a good time is passing you by.
Life is the devil itself.

Garbadge Deams

For those of us who forgot ... !!!

Wish

I just wish I knew what I am suppose to do.
I wish I just knew. No matter how hard the journey might get, I would go.

But I wished I knew Before I start...
I WISH

Anonymous Thanks

Thank you

Thank you !
Thanks for taking care of me,
Watching over me,
Now and then ...
Days and nights.

Just to let you know,
Thank you

Lost and Lonly

And when hopes leaves me,
The black of in my soul would take over my heart
The ghosts of my past
Would come back to hunt me.

And my childhood’s terrors would creeps over me once again

After that,

I feel LONLY ...
Completely LOST!

If you are looking for the wining side of life, you have to fight or lose it all. No exception is applied. Being good is not enough.
Life doesn't deserve GOOD!

Hate

I hate Life.
I do get this feeling from time to time. May be it's because I need to do something I don’t like, but anyways I don’t like it and sometimes I really hate being alive.
It seems there is always something wrong with my life. And although I know there is something wrong, I can't do anything about it.

To whom it may concern:
We stand still till eternity; because that is the way we do things.
Sky is changing; we are getting transform to something else, but still this is the way we do things.
No doubt about it.

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For the Fireflies. I wont fight it anymore. I wont argue with it anymore. Let it get me once and for all, for good. All for the Fireflies.!

GONE

I’m gone
But remember
I had plans to change the world
But world failed to be changed

I had plans to make it better
But rejection was its response
I had plans to teach everyone
The secrets of life, the forbidden fruit
But they preferred Ignorance.

I had plans

Remember
Remember
Remember

And now

I am losing ground
Every moment that passes me by
I lose more and more

But remember
I had plans
It was the world which ignored me
I came and gone
But you remember
Just remember

Just like a SETTING SUN.
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Setting sun

"You’re the devil inside me I brought from the cold
You said your body was young
But your mind is very old
You’re coming on strong and I like the way
The visions we had have faded away
You’re part of a life I’ve never had
I’ll tell you that it’s just too bad
You’re coming on strong
You’re showing your colour"

Like a setting sun

Future is what we think of, but remember it is still going even if we dont think its good!!
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Future

Is it coming? Is it good? Is it gonna be alright?
This is the sort of questions we would ask ourselves in times which we think we have a choice in life. This is quite interesting, regardless of what we think we know, our answers may not be correct, and there is only  predictions and guesses but still we ask these questions anyway.
I thought about its whys. There were a lots of reasons and explanations I came up with, but in the end one of the main motive was because it makes us to feel good about situation or at least makes us to think we care about the situation.
And believe in it or not, the future will depend on what we feel about it. For instant, if you feel pretty good about something which would happens in the future, you will find out it is most likely to become the way you like it to be and vice versa.

However other theories are appreciated.
I remember a word that I heard from someone which stresses the above point:

If you say I can’t do something you never would.

Suffer in Darkness.
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SUFFER

Someone said to me: “Why don’t you kill yourself?”
I ask him: " Why would I kill myself when world is doing it for me, slowly, and make me suffer?”

And really why we don’t kill ourselves? Are we afraid of dieing? We all know, some day we all gonna die, so why would we afraid of something which we all know it will happen someday.

Try to find a better reason to be alive.

Heros, only Heros ...
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Heros

Bless the heros
That have no wrong in their hearts
Bless the heros
Who fight for your words
Bless the heros
who fight for more then the president
Bless the heros
that love those whom they have never met
Bless the heros

Who have gone to Heaven for us.

Suppose I ...
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Suppose ...

Suppose I lied

when I told you I was over you,

Suppose I lied

When I said that I could be yours.

Suppose I lied

when I said I was your other half.

Suppose I lied

when I made any sense to you.

Suppose I lied

Suppose I lied

Suppose I lied 

...

What do you think about this Picture? let me know if you got some comment.
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Please Help me!!
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TRY!!

I can't fucking TRY anymore.
What the hell is wrong with me?

I am Allways not in the Mood.
What the hell is going with me?

Please, Please, Say something.

Those time is Gone. Now is my turn again.
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What about this time
Something has happened, I don’t want to believe it but it happened anyways. I am not the best anymore! It is so strange cause in past 20 years it never happened to me.
I never wanted to be the first but second, I was at least second if I wasn’t fist.
Now things have been changed. I am nothing. I waste my time away for doing nothing.
I have to do something. I have to change a lot of things. I am far far behind of what I should be. I have to be quick, very quick.
I know what would happens now, and I will change those things which went wrong. I am going to get back to the game. And this time I’m definitely going to win.

So I’m telling you, who wants to stop me: You may slowed me down for a while but I’m back again, stronger than before. So fear me, because this is fear that keeps you in the safe distance from my wrath.

I was watting for you, even now!!
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I'm Glad this time
Want to know the truth? It came back again. I don’t know this time is going to be like before - attack me then leave me to reinforce or this time is the time to stay forever - or not but it is coming back yet again. Feel sorry for myself. However I am happy for myself because at least I had good break, made me ready for it. I didn’t expect it so soon, but what the hell. It comes anyways.

A Hidden Monster may Show itself !
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Chasing

Alright, you were right it is following me! Maybe is not going to leave me for ever which I expect so but it is not about it, it is about me. It is about me wanted to be free. I like my freedom and now the feeling is came back again. You know, I am going to ignore it this time. I am going to let it understand how the ignoring feels is.
In a simple word:

This time I am the BOSS. And I am going to be a bitch bout it.
Ok, Now what’s you gonna be moron?

Just show me, where is the EXIT?
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To Realize ...
I find it in here. It was very interesting for me.

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.......

Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

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What do you think?
To realize
The value of life:
Waste it?

One of my web log’s friend has wrote in her web log a beautiful piece of poem that I like to share with you, but first I should thanks Sarvenaz for her lovely web log:

I am not shallow, nor deep.
I am not smart, nor dumb.
I am not nice, nor mean.
I am not the best, nor the worst.
I am not strong, nor weak.
I am not happy, nor sad.
I am not good, nor bad.
I am not fun, nor boring.
I am not fast, nor slow.
I am not rich, nor poor.
I am not the winner, nor the loser.
I am not sweet, nor bitter.
I am not old, nor young.
I am not short, nor tall.
I am not black, nor white.
I am who my destiny has formed me into…

And really we are who we meant to be! Although what did happen to our will?

It is here. Now Close again
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I had a strange Dream!!
I don’t know why I’m wanna talk to you now
But somehow I really want
Something is happening
I’m afraid
Not because of me
Not for anyone
I just feel unsafe
Something is around
Near
Far
Sometimes come really close
Put its hands around my neck
Portend doesn’t harm
But it will
Sometimes get far
No one can see it
But still
You know you are watched
From distance
I fear not for myself
But ...
Please
Please
Answer me

If you don’t

LET ME OUT OF HERE ... .
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Out of Here
You know what? Get over here and let’s play or no let’s bet on our lives. Loser has to have other player life and lives for him too.
Let’s give our life to those who lives happily. Those aren’t sad.
Let’s they enjoy our life, at least we are sure our life doesn’t wasted.
I’m tiered, tiered of myself or more of everyone else.

LET ME OUT OF HERE

Make me BLEED!!
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Life or Vacation
In a movie there was a girl how in the last part of the film she ask herself may be life is a vacation of something. Maybe we are supposed to enjoy it and spend it with those we love.
This is an interesting philosophy. Life is a vacation, and it might be true. However these questions come after it: we choose to go to vacation, we know this is not a real life when we are in vacation, and we now exact time to leave the vacation. But in the life, we don’t know we choose or not, we have no idea about another life and of course the end is still unknown too.
Although as all instance, it just gives us some points.

1- We should enjoy the life.
2- This life isn’t real.

I know we are suppose to be happy, but Does happiness equal to enjoy?

Fear or Respect
Have you ever thought about what we human have to fear of? Do we have to fear of our enemy? Or perhaps if we are very brave we don’t fear of anything. Some religious people say that men have to not fear of anything except GOD. This is a nice prophesies I believe, however did we try to define what GOD is?
We assume that every body knows the meaning of God! The power far-far beyond of human’s power in this word. But I have another proposition for answer to this question:

I say we shouldn’t fear of anything except ourselves.

Really did you ever thing which it might be we are God? See in my religion God say to human that I am as close as your neck to you. I always ask myself what is a close as my neck to me? And you know what my answer was? It was me!
Or I hear a lot of times which if you want to know God, know yourself.
So in fact we can say we still afraid of God if we fear of ourselves. Although what is fear?
Maybe fear is some sort of respect. Actually we don’t afraid of those we respect to but we make difference between them and other who we don’t respect. So it is possible all meaning of fear was respect. And in some point this definition has changed.
In conclusion you are the God, so respect your God.

Respect yourself.

All I Need is to Know ... !!!
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Enjoy
We always wanted to enjoy what we do or what we have, but do we ever think about why we like to enjoy every thing?
Enjoying is good because it give us feel good, because it let us stand the hardness of our life. In other word, enjoying stop us to become tiered. This is what exactly we don’t want to become, tiered.
People pay a lot of their money to spend a time in good holiday, because they were tiered of the ordinarily life. When we start losing every thing, in fact loosing our concentration people tell us: "Take a vacation.” Why? Because when we enjoy something we prepare to take a life more seriously.

We need to enjoy things we do, and we basically don’t do it in normal life, so we try to make it. However the time after enjoyable moment is sad because we don’t want to leave whose moments. So we have two choices:

1 - Enjoy every thing!
2 – Do not enjoy anything.

First choices will not actually happen in our life, maybe we portend to enjoy every thing but soon we will tire to portend it.
In second choices we don’t enjoy anything, so we get tired but that what it is, we never enjoy anything and still get tired. In other hand we don’t get sad after enjoying too.
Anyway there is the third choice which is the one we take every time.

By the way, why we have to enjoy something or hate it? Why we hate something others enjoy it? Who make us to be like that?

Maybe we should ask him why we are like this and why!!

I've done it for myself, You do it for yours.
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