Mountains of The Truth

On the mountains of truth you can never climb in vain: either you will reach a point higher up today, or you will be training your powers so that you will be able to climb higher tomorrow.

Friedrich Nietzsche (1844 - 1900)

Sympathy For The Devil

Please allow me to introduce myself
I'm a man of wealth and taste
I've been around for a long, long year
Stole many a man's soul and faith

And I was 'round when Jesus Christ
Had his moment of doubt and pain
Made damn sure that Pilate
Washed his hands and sealed his fate

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guess my name
`cause what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game

I stuck around St. Petersburg
When I saw it was a time for a change
Killed the czar and his ministers
Anastasia screamed in vain

I rode a tank
Held a general's rank
When the blitzkrieg raged
And the bodies stank

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guess my name
Ah, what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game

I watched with glee
While your kings and queens
Fought for ten decades
For the gods they made

I shouted out,
"Who killed the Kennedys?"
When after all
It was you and me

Let me please introduce myself
I'm a man of wealth and taste
And I laid traps for troubadours
Who get killed before they reached Bombay

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name
`cause what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name
`cause what's confusing you
Is just the nature of my game

Pleased to meet you, pleased to meet you
guess my name, guess my name
Pleased to meet you, pleased to meet you
guess my name, guess my name

TIAMAT
Skeleton Skeletron (1999)
Sympathy For The Devil

Mysterious Nights

A piece which I have done Long back, I find it in my Archive:
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Every night, when darkness spread through the blue sky from the east,
An unknown sense of doubt spread through my heart too.
I keen to question every manner of human life in the darkness of night.
Night make me feel black, what a pretty black too.
Sometimes, I think, I am falling in love with the dark nights.
Then suddenly something reminds me:
It can’t be! How could I fall in love?

Then as always, when I see you in the morning,
The feeling of doubt just fades away.
You fill me warm calm and certain.

Every now and then I ask myself:
Am I falling love with you?
So what does this feeling means?
What does it called? What am I? And what is happening to me?

Confidence and Rights

People who have given us their complete confidence believe that they have a right to ours. The inference is false, a gift confers no rights.

Friedrich Nietzsche (1844 - 1900)

Sympathy For The Devil

Please allow me to introduce myself
I'm a man of wealth and taste
I've been around for a long, long year
Stole many a man's soul and faith

And I was 'round when Jesus Christ
Had his moment of doubt and pain
Made damn sure that Pilate
Washed his hands and sealed his fate

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guess my name
`cause what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game

I stuck around St. Petersburg
When I saw it was a time for a change
Killed the czar and his ministers
Anastasia screamed in vain

I rode a tank
Held a general's rank
When the blitzkrieg raged
And the bodies stank

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guess my name
Ah, what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game

I watched with glee
While your kings and queens
Fought for ten decades
For the gods they made

I shouted out,
"Who killed the Kennedys?"
When after all
It was you and me

Let me please introduce myself
I'm a man of wealth and taste
And I laid traps for troubadours
Who get killed before they reached Bombay

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name
`cause what's puzzling you
Is the nature of my game

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name
`cause what's confusing you
Is just the nature of my game

Pleased to meet you, pleased to meet you
guess my name, guess my name
Pleased to meet you, pleased to meet you
guess my name, guess my name

TIAMAT
Skeleton Skeletron (1999)
Sympathy For The Devil

Opinions

It is hard enough to remember my opinions, without also remembering my reasons for them!

Friedrich Nietzsche (1844 - 1900) 

Again an impeccable remark ...

Love and Hate, Friends and Enemies

The man of knowledge must not only be able to love his enemies, he must also be able to hate his friends.
Friedrich Nietzsche (1844–1900)

Not only love your enemy, but hate your friends...
Somehow I always knew friends are over rated. It is true that friends help you when you are most vulnerable, but most of the time they are who cause the problem in a first place. At least it was the case in my experience. I love my friends but I hate them as much.

As for your enemy, why you should hate your enemy, it is merely his purpose to do you harm in your life. So why hate him while without your enemy there is nothing to live on for. Better yet to love him as a wise man never hate his enemies.

NEW ORDER

These are the Rules, My Rules. You live with them, you obey them.

You can’t bend them, you can’t break them.

But I can.

That’s what makes me Strong, and leaves you hopeless.

WELCOME TO MY ORDER
WELCOME TO MY UNIVERSE

Life’s Implication

Life’s Simplicity makes it ROUGH, Life’s Ignorance, makes it UNBEARABLE and Life’s precedent, makes it a LIE.

Heaven and Fools

In heaven all the interesting people are missing.

Friedrich Nietzsche

There is a bitter truth in this quote. I always wondered how heaven would be looks like. The religions describe heaven as a magical place which everybody enjoying themselves forever and ever until the end of times.

In this life, people enjoy small amount of relief between long agonies. Fun and interesting stuff are precious because most of the time people are bored and suffering is common. Think about a place filled with all the interesting stuff you could ever imagine, and then would they still seems interesting if you stay with them forever and ever? The only reason for things being interesting is because they are rare. Nobody else has it or it is too hard to get. In heaven everybody can have anything they want.

Heaven is boring … I don’t understand why people are so eager to get the heaven anyways. Suppose people preferred to be bored than burned in hell. But when you think about it, being bored until the end of time is not much different from burning either. It’s another form of suffering which heaven should have. So it is all hell then.

If there is no heaven, there is no hell either.

It is all a lie. People do all the things which they think of them as a good deed to get to heaven. But when you look closely they are just a fool running toward a mirage.

Damn Fools

Soul Mate !!!

A lot of people believe in soul mates. Well I think it is safe to say everybody in some point has a friend and if they were lucky enough those friends become their close friends and eventually their mates. But soul mate is more than just that. Seems it is like a magical or perhaps spiritual bond between two people, evidently among opposite sex, which glue them together forever and ever until the end of time. If you sensed the sarcasm in my argument, you sensed correct. As much as I do want to believe that there is a soul mate out there waiting for me, I cant help thinking the whole story is some sort of fairy tale which is designed to help youngster go to sleep and dream about the brighter future in the rough times. Really that is what it is. Statistically the chance of you finding your soul mate, if there is one, is so slim that it is easier to not look for it. Beside if there is a soul mate out there let him/her find you after all it is YOUR soul mate.
The reason I talked about soul mate is that we as human tend to hope that future life is going to be easer that what it is now which is not true. Future is going to be as crappy and stupid as present. It would not going to get better folks, don’t wish for it. What you can do is first accept that life is full of lies and crap then try to get used to it. Perhaps in time if you don’t day dream all the time, your mind would find the way to ease thing for you a bit. But it is assured that life certainly not gonna get sweeter in our life time anyways, so WEAK UP, there is no soul mate, go find your mate and try to build your life with him/her.
You can call me Mr. Negative but you all know I am right.

Angles on my Sides

Through the night shall all wash away
All the horrors of the day
And the little angels on my sides
Tries to make it all worthwhile1

1Tiamat – Nihil

2Picture from DeviantArt - Evilherbivore

Egoism

There is a saying:
"Success is never so sweet as when it companied by the failure of a friend."1

Horrible saying but deep in its roots there is a bitter truth. We as a human like that. It gave us joy and feel superior over our best friends in their worst time. This is a quality we all share. After millennia of evolution, human learned to set some rules in his life and divide his actions in to good and evil. But somewhere along the way we forgot who we are. We forgot we are a being derived with selfishness. We are alive because of that egoism in our life. We very well try to hide it bit we all know it’s in there. Deep down we haven’t yet evolved. We just change our skins.

It is my belief that in order for human to evolve, they ought to embrace their selfishness. Only by embracing it that we can truly understand ourselves and in that process we get to next level. The higher path.

1Boston Legal, Season 3 Episode 24

From the Father to the Son

He pushed the chair a bit closer to his son. It was about time, time for the talk. He stare at the ground for a couple of second, he was trying to imagine how his son was thinking right now. Maybe he shouldn’t talk to him. Perhaps he was better of with out his advice. Then he remembered how every parent would do in this situation, they don’t talk. He didn’t want to be like other parents. In fact he didn’t want to be like anybody, and he wasn’t.
‘Son’ he began, ‘you may remember that by now everybody told you more friend you have, the better off you going to be. Whoever you chose as a friend will change your life for better of worst.’ His son was nodding along but he could see the confusion in his son’s eyes. ‘Now you rich a certain level that I can let you in a little secret about life. A hidden and ugly secret. I have lived for around forty years and in that time I have done everything for my friends. But what I realized is that even the most liberal of your friends will impose in you life. They try to influence on your life and try to change the course of your life as they please. They won’t give you your free choice when it comes to their interests. I guess what I’m trying to say is that friends are not as great as they given credits.’ He stopped for a while. He thought either he destroyed his son’s life or given him an advantage which will serve him good in his life. ‘I don’t say don’t have friends, but I’ll tell you don’t change your life because of them.’ He continued. ‘The fact is they have to change rather than you.’ Then he looked deep inside his son’s confused eyes. He could sense the conflict inside his son’s mind. Perhaps the confusion was the best he could hope for in the first initiative. He took his son’s right hand with his left hand and told him: ‘your best friend will betray, sell, break your heart and leave you. It will happen sooner or later but the trick is you shouldn’t think it is an odd event. Now that you know it will happen in that time, you may feel pain and sorrow but you won’t be paralyzed. Remember the worse thing about friend betrayal is that they most likely do it because they love you. This thing will put you in a real dilemma, should you forgive them or hate them forever. This is what you have to figure it out by yourselves.’ Then he got up turn his face from his son’s face and left the room.
Then there was a young man, a sad truth and an empty room.

What makes a man, a man?

You hear this sentence before, in song’s lyrics, in speeches and it made your mind wonders, what really makes a man, a man?Is it what he has done in his life? Is it the choices he made? Is it the life he lived? Or is it the way he ends his life?
I think it has to be just more than that. Of course we are what we do, or better to say perhaps we do what we are. If it is so, you should be a man to be a man. Simple. Just be one, choices are not simple. I am not talking about just those choice we make every now and then which change our life, I am talking about those choices we make and change others life. We have to consider that when we do things it has some effect on other people.
Still sometimes my mind wonders why we should feel good when people engage us as a significant figure, when we really know what we are. Why we feel superior when we know just some simple choice, perhaps some luck on the way with some proper support from others made what we are? How could we don’t feel ashamed when we know everybody can do what we did? You may quote “it is not true! Everybody is unique in its own way.” Although I don’t disagree, but we have to implicate the element of environment and the time we made those choices which make us unique. Think about it.
Why we want to be The MAN?

Who we are?

Big question and maybe stupid one too, isn’t it? Why is it matter, “who we are?” when we are, here right now?!
But when you think about it, it doesn’t seem that much stupid at all.
consider it: what if you know who you really are, I’m not talking about knowing what regain or ethnic background you came from; what I am asking is you knew all about you, your desirers, your powers, your potentials all the stuffs which is fundamentally about you. Don’t you think if you knew all these things, you would put your life in a right track, you won’t never hate yourself for the things you didn’t do, because you may know that you could not do it after all!
Or may be it is a blessing that we don’t know who we are.
I personally want to know who I am and as much as I know this is one of my only wishes which will never come true, still want to reserve my chances that perhaps one day in this life time I know who I was.
I can dream, can’t I?

Hunter

Life is like a hunter, laying in waiting for you, waiting to take out a good which passing you by.
Life is the devil itself

Garbadge Deams

For those of us who forgot ... !!!

Wish

I just wish I knew what I suppose to do.
I wish I just know that. No matter how much hard the way to get there might be hard, I would go.

But I wish I knew...
I WISH

Anonymous Thanks

Thank you

Thank you !
Thanks for taking care of me,
Watching over me,
Now and then ...
Days and nights.

Just to let you know,
Thank you

Lost and Lonly

And when hope leaves me,
The black of my soul take over my heart
The ghosts of my past
Came back to hunt me.

And my child fears start to chase me once again
After that,

I feel LONLY ...
... Completely LOST

If you are looking for the wining side of life, you has to fight or lose it all. No exception in anyhow. Being good, wont happend. Life doesn't deserve GOOD!
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Hate

I hate Life.
I get this feeling from time to time. May be reason is because I out to do some thing I don’t like, but anyways I don’t like it and sometimes I really hate living.
It seems always there is something wrong with. And you know that but aren’t able to do something about it.

To whom it may concern:
We stand still till eternity; because that is the way we do it.
Sky is changing; we are getting transform to something else’s, but that the way we do it. No doubt about it.

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For the Fireflies. But I wont fight it anymore. I wont argue it anymore. Let it get me once for all for good. All for the Fireflies.!
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GONE

I’m gone
But remember
I had plans to change the world
But world failed me to

I had plans to make it a better place
But it rejected my plans
I had plans to teach everyone
The secrets of life
But world preferred its lack of understanding

I had plans
Remember
Remember
Remember

And now

I am losing ground
Every moment that is past
Every inch I lose more

But remember
I had plans
It was world led me down
I came and gone
But you remember
Just remember

Just like a SETTING SUN.
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Setting sun

You’re the devil inside me I brought from the cold
You said your body was young
But your mind is very old
You’re coming on strong and I like the way
The visions we had have faded away
You’re part of a life I’ve never had
I’ll tell you that it’s just too bad
You’re coming on strong
You’re showing your colour

Like a setting sun

Future is what we think of, but remember it is still going even if we dont think its good!!
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Future

Is it coming? Is it good? Is it gonna be alright?
This is all sort of questions we asking ourselves in those times we think we have to choose in our life. This is quite interesting which regardless of we know the answer of these questions aren’t correct, and there is only some guesses and predictions but still we ask these from ourselves.
I thought about it why. There were a lots of reason and explanation I believe, but in the end one of the main motive was because it makes us to feel good about situation or at least make us to think we care about the situation.
And believe in it or not, the future will depend on what we feel about it. For instant, if you feel pretty good about something which will be happening in future, you will find out it is most likely to become the way you like to be and vice versa.

However other theories are appreciated.
I remember a world that I heard from someone which was familiar to me though:

If you say I can’t do something you never would.

Suffer in Darkness.
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SUFFER

Someone said to me: “Why don’t you kill yourself?”
I ask him: " Why would I kill myself when world do it for me, slowly, and make me suffer?”

And really why we don’t kill ourselves? Are we afraid of dieing? We all know, some day we all will die, so why would we afraid of something which we all know it will happen someday.

Try to find a better reason to be alive.

Heros, only Heros ...
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Heros

Bless the heros
That have no wrong in their hearts
Bless the heros
Who fight for your words
Bless the heros
who fight for more then the president
Bless the heros
that love those whom they have never met
Bless the heros

Who have gone to Heaven for us.

Suppose I ...
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Suppose ...

Suppose I lied
and told you I was over you
Suppose I lied
When I said that I could be your everything
Suppose I lied
when I said I was your better half.
Suppose I lied
when I made any sense to you.

What do you think about this Picture? let me know if you got some comment.
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Please Help me!!
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TRY!!

I can't fucking TRY anymore.
What the hell is wrong with me?

I am Allways not in the Mood.
What the hell is going with me?

Please, Please, Say something.

Those time is Gone. Now is my turn again.
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What about this time
Something has happened, I don’t want to believe it but it happened anyways. I am not the best anymore! It is so strange cause in 20th years before it never happened to me.
I never wanted to be the first but second, I was at least second if I wasn’t fist.
Now things have been changed. I am nothing. I waste my time away for doing nothing.
I have to do something. I have to change a lot of things. I am far far behind of what I should be. I have to be quick, very quick.
I know what happened now, and I will change those things have went wrong. I am going to get back to the game. And this time I’m definitely going to win.

So I’m telling you, who wants to stop me: You may slow me down for a while but I’m back again, stronger than before. So fear of me, because this is fear that keeps you in the safe distance from me.

I was watting for you, even now!!
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I'm Glad this time
Want to know the truth? It came back again. I don’t know this time is going to be like before - attack me then leave me to reinforce or this time is the time to stay forever - or not but it is coming back yet again. Feel sorry for myself. However I am happy for myself because at least I had good break, made me ready for it. I didn’t expect it so soon, but what the hell. It comes anyways.

A Hidden Monster may Show itself !
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Chasing

Alright, you were right it is following me! Maybe is not going to leave me for ever which I expect so but it is not about it, it is about me. It is about me wanted to be free. I like my freedom and now the feeling is came back again. You know, I am going to ignore it this time. I am going to let it understand how the ignoring feels is.
In a simple word:

This time I am the BOSS. And I am going to be a bitch bout it.
Ok, Now what’s you gonna be moron?

Just show me, where is the EXIT?
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To Realize ...
I find it in here. It was very interesting for me.

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics.......

Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

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What do you think?
To realize
The value of life:
Waste it?

One of my web log’s friend has wrote in her web log a beautiful piece of poem that I like to share with you, but first I should thanks Sarvenaz for her lovely web log:

I am not shallow, nor deep.
I am not smart, nor dumb.
I am not nice, nor mean.
I am not the best, nor the worst.
I am not strong, nor weak.
I am not happy, nor sad.
I am not good, nor bad.
I am not fun, nor boring.
I am not fast, nor slow.
I am not rich, nor poor.
I am not the winner, nor the loser.
I am not sweet, nor bitter.
I am not old, nor young.
I am not short, nor tall.
I am not black, nor white.
I am who my destiny has formed me into…

And really we are who we meant to be! Although what did happen to our will?

It is here. Now Close again
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